love

so much thinking going on.... sometimes i wish i didn't think so much.
but today riding back from the beach with Don & Cathy, we were soaking in some AMAZING latin music. it wasnt steriotypical "mexican" music you hear when your eating at a Hispanic resturant, it was like Latin Jazz if that makes any sense. so here i am riding in the Suburban on a gloriously beautiful day, and im thinking about "purpose" and direction for life. and i was at such peace today, i couldnt bring myself to my usual frustration. i could only listen. as if my ability to worry and be frustrated had been numbed. i just sat and listened as God spoke love to me. I have been so caught up recently in wanting to conquer the world for Jesus. But i have neglected putting my ear to His chest and listening to His heart. I have fallen in love with ministry, and forgotten who i was ministering to and for. so today, He just reminded me, that my life is ministering to Him, and then when it's time, if it's ever time, the "ministry" will happen.
wow.